Long time no talk
Hi guys. Just wanted to do another check in with you all.
I miss you guys! But I’m still not really ok. I have really good days, but I also have really bad days. Lately the bad days have kinda been outweighing the good, which sucks.
I still can’t put myself in a healthy enough mindset to work out (it either ends up viewed as a punishment for not eating healthy or an “if I work out, then I can____” which also isn’t a good thing because it takes me down not ok paths)
I’m hoping that with summer coming and what will possibly be my least busiest summer in years I can work towards being able to get my mind back to being more ok.
I want to be able to work out again because I just like how I feel.
I want to be able to view food normally, or at least in a healthier light than I do now.
I know I can do this. I know at least subconsciously I’ve apparently been keeping active enough/watching what I eat enough to where this…hiatus…hasn’t set me back for being at a healthy weight. I want to be able to do this more consciously though without my mind going crazy.
So yeah, that’s where I’m at. I still can’t really be on this blog much because even the 20 or so minutes I’ve spent on here have been rough.